“CAN I DANCE WITH LO IN THE GARDEN?”

“Lo” is the name my daughter called our sweet little lady dog. Her name is actually Noel.

Noel had many a nicknames, “Little” by my older daughter, “Peanut” by my bestfriend, “Leon” by another friend, “Christmas” was an ever popular one with my husbands family, and finally “Lo” by my littlest daughter.

The “title” of this post was said by her on a short little vacation at our favourite family friends farm in the Grey County area. At the time it was funny and sweet, now it feels more symbolic...

We unfortunately had to say goodbye to our sweet “Lo” earlier this month. As you all know she had been ill for over a month, and progressively getting worse. In the end, her issues were ruling towards being neurological. It makes sense, looking back at old videos after we lost her showed a lot of differences in her little personality. I’ve had trouble on how to emotionally express this loss.

I feel guilty the last year and a half of her life was so displaced, and she was often put to the side because I was to busy with all other life’s going on’s. There's guilt I couldn’t help her, and sadness that she never got to really explore the new home or surroundings. She loved to explore! It makes me sad the only outdoor time she had here was us carrying her in and out to go to the bathroom.

More complex emotions are the feelings I’ve lost another piece of my bestfriend. She adored Noel, and Noel adored her. With Noel gone, it’s one less thing in the world that was tied to my friend when she was alive. That’s a really hard pill to swallow.