MISSING OUT.

There are a lot of difficult things about being a working mom. One of, and probably the most difficult, is all you miss out on.

My little is at a wonderful home daycare, looked after by an amazing women. My daughter adores her and vice versa. It's really beautiful and comforting to see the love this women has for my daughter.

She does so much with the kids she has in her care. In the summers it's splash parks, mud days in her backyard, crafts and indoor play gyms on rainy days, visiting local fun spots and so on. It’s so wonderful to hear all about my little’s adventures, but I also feel pangs of jealousy and sadness.

The summer before this one, my little wasn’t walking yet so we never visited the splash park. I felt sad and almost like an outsider asking all about her first visit and, how she reacted to spraying water coming at her.

They visited a local farm open to the public. I wanted to take her to this farm because they have a tractor, and she’s currently obsessed with tractors. That trip made me feel jealous. Jealous that I didn’t get to go with her and be the "hero mom" who showed her a cool tractor!

This week it's her first tobogganing down hills, again something I missed.

It’s so amazing to know she’s experiencing so much at daycare, but it’s so hard to know you're not a part of it.

They are only little for a short period of time. They can only do something for the first time once.