SILENCE IS THE ENEMY.
Silence.
Your worst enemy most days, but more so when on the journey of grief.
Silence allows you to think.
Think of the last moments, the good moments, the lost moments.
The worst time of day for me is when I put my daughter to bed.
I lay with her until she falls asleep. In silence.
All I think about is what's transpired in the last year.
I haven't been able to sleep without having a podcast on. I've been probably doing this for over a year now. It was the only way to stop my mind from spinning while my friend was ill.
I doubt I'll ever be able to sleep without a podcast playing. The silence is too scary to face.